it will be okay then

i wasn't going to bed, even though i maybe should have. listening to beach house on myspace and drifting. trying to avoid thoughts that were old and just keepin on, keepin on. it's so hard to defy the temptations. of reminiscing in love that i knew. it's okay, so you just keep on, keep on. there are beautiful people passing by. that girl today, she took me by surprise. so full of life and radiating like a sunbeam in the early summer mornings. asking for my brother. it shook me up. i called him later, crying, telling him how much i love him. i can't even describe. he was embracing my love, just like that. back then. he never doubted it one time. well, hello melancholy. try to be a little more lyrical!

stories of prostitutes on kurfuerstenstrasse. internationally known whore pit. streetwalking ladies, yo, it breaks my heart. behind every story there is a tragedy. rape, neglect, waywardness, sorrow. mothers who beat their kids, looked the other way when their men raped their children. it's breaking my fucking heart. it makes me cry. dad says, well, you can't stop there. you have to figure out how you can grow strong, so you can walk beside them.
i turn my head and i hang my head and cry.
music is the only thing that still can reach that far then.
you give me strength to keep going to keep on to keep on.

i remember sunset blv. the street at night, i was barefeet. i was crying and sobbing on the phone. my mother. bought an international calling card at walgreens. then ran to food4less. they were still open. i just cried. i didn't know what to do. it wasn't the first time that my heart started breaking. but it was the first time that i was so personally affected by it.
aye, how i loved you, my prince, in the shower.
rain is washing away my memories but it's not enough.
i can't bare anything anymore. i am not complaining. i am just saying. i can't bare anything. your chewing, your breathing and drinking tea. the noises drive me crazy. your closeness is drawing me away. your love i can't shelter. i just want to turn the other way and run, run, run into the away.

wings are flashing.
i can't hear you properly
breathing
in and out
in and out
in and out
in and out

it will be okay. if i can only sing
i don't know if i ever have to meet you
again.

there is only salty water in this well.