ben harper

ben harper...there will be a light....
I cry in the night
It moves me deep inside. There are so many facettes of life and he touches so many of them. And I am reminded of them and I feel: Oh yeah, there is so much out there, that is yet to be discovered by me.

And in the same time I know, that inside, there is as much and as important things to be discovered. And maybe I am just missing them.

I think of J. and feel a deep sorrow inside myself. Why did I have to break up? Why couldn't I take this wonderful gift of life and love him and be loved by this tender, deep, caring guy???

Tonight I really missed someone like him. or, i missed HIM. The way he hugs me, puts his strong arms around me and the way he kisses me. The way he closes his eyes and kisses so tenderly....
The way he gets me excited without knowing it. His big hands which could kill someone and are yet so tender in touching. Almost too soft...

It hurts to think that I abandoned this gift, this wonderful person for the sake of experience...For the sake of a friendship that seems to fall apart now anyways. I mean, sure we will hold the contact... But time shows different faces at times....

Ben Harper...."Please Me Like You Want To"

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