who the f*** is ME?

so. the age. does it matter? i guess. i just met two girls who knew me from back in school. they were 16. looked like buds before blossoming.
i suddenly understood why men fall for young 'women', why women later feel nostalgic about being sweet 16 or 18. its just such a beautiful thing. so innocent, so shining, so radiating.
no, i am not above 30. I am 22 thats very young, too, obviously, but relatively speaking.

so. sexual orientation? that matters certainly. I like guys, a lot, and I like girls a lot, too. however, my sexual experience has so far only included kissing and petting with women but no sex. well. oh yeah, forgot: once I also shared my guy with my best friend ;) but as she wasn't really bi i cannot claim having had sex with a woman but indeed I had sex with a woman and a guy together.
Thinking of that it suddenly feels very absurd, to be honest. Man, what did she think when she saw me fucking this guy? I remember what I thought seeing her: I thought: This guy has a hard time satisfying two women in the same time. And I thought: Oh my God, she is so passionate. I didn't know her like that before. Although she was and is my best friend.

At some point I left, cuz he took too long getting ready with her. I sat down in his living room and started reading the geology books of his wife. (As it later turned out. She is very sweet and doesn't deserve such a bastard). But alhtough he is a bastard I am very grateful cuz he was my first guy (I waited with sex until I was 21 which is a different story and just let me assure you that it wasn't easy at all!) and made my first time an incredible unforgettable experience. He was also the one who made me do my first striptease (which was great fun but I am happy he did not film me!) and , yeah, just unforgettable.

Well, it s important that my friend still IS my best friend. It could as well have ruined our friendship but indeed it deepened it. I wouldn't recommend this kind of experience though to everybody. Better choose a girl who is bi, too, and who you don't know as well as your best friend.
The coolest thing however was, that we had a real fun time talking after sex. He fell asleep, as men are supposed and said to, after having had exhausting sex, and we had each other to indulge into the talking women are said to like to do after having had sex :)
We thought how terrible it'd be if we had become pregnant this night because then, seeing the children, it would be very clear who of us was more beautiful. lol. with the same dad....haha. women! I don't get it.

As I already said, I waited quite long until I had sex first . But since then I really tried to explore this universe.

I am big. I have always envied my sisters who were the most beautiful beings in this world, if you had asked me back then. I was different. tall, big. people would say I have an athletic figure, I thought I was fat. Now I see I wasn't but now I am. LOL. Not really but a bit maybe haha. Who the fuck cares. Whenever I am so far to say: ok, maybe I should do sth about it, I meet some guy who loves me the way I am and then all motivation to losing weight is gone. So I told myself, as long as I can run 10 km after having danced through a night, I am allright.

Piranha is my nick cuz I can bite. I am a cat. I love cuddling but I can bite too. I am pisces. So I am piranha. Thats all what is there about it. Man, now I revealed one of my last secrets . poof.

I don't really dig being nice for the sake of being nice. I hate fake. Thats why I had a hard time faking orgasms in the first place. So why the fuck? Just because I want to please you it doesn't mean I am going to fake it. I should though, according to my sis, to make the guys stay with me. But I don't want anyone to stay. I want to learn. Thats all for now. And man, I have lots and lots of fun having sex, even WITHOUT orgasms. capito?

People think I am crazy, indeed I am. I am crazy in love with this world. I often push myself doing things I otherwise would regret not having done. (there are too many stories to tell!!!) I wanna fight for this world although I am very pessimistic about the human race and the state of the world. But yeah. There is this idealist inside me, I can't help it.

to come back to sexual matters, as today I consider them to be foremost important and as hopefully nobody knows me here I can reveal my innermost feelings and experiences. Isn't there a little exhibitonist in all of us? He?

I just recently met my master, man, he really reconciled me with the woman inside me. He made me shiver and shake and cry and scream and sigh and groan. And he treated me like a real woman. That was cool. Since then everything changed, honestly. I had sex with this other guy and it was GREAT. And, without being arrogant in this respect I can say it was not really because of him but because of me. lol.
I didn't have to fake anything and we did it all night long.

My arms fall asleep while having sex.

I like playing. I don't like kiss-kisses. I like playing. I want to have a kiss-story not a fucking wet-stick-our-tongue-way down-my-trhoat-kiss-desaster.
I fucking hate it when you stroke my hand on the same spot for hours, with little circulating strokes. man, I am not a REAL CAT! I am a sexual cat but not a fucking pussycat!

So. I also don't like, as I mentioned before, neither guys sucking my breasts as if they were babies, nor guys who touch 'em as if they were extremely injurable and fragile. Man, babies fucking BITE sometimes their mothers breasts! There are women BOXING! We are not made of porcelain!

So, who the fuck is me? I use the word fuck way too much and I am an artist. is that enough? I love dancing and I love life and music and philosophy and I like guys who know how to treat a woman. If you wanna know what I mean by that don't hesitate to ask me. If you ask me every guy should have obligatory classes in school where he learns how to do that. Both, in sexual and social respect. Mind-sex is similarly important as physical sex.

I am not onesided. I am aware of the dark side of the moon and I don't want to lock it up.