upside down

he gave me all of the sudden a passionate hug, embraced me with a force i hadn't expected from him. what, if intelligence chains you always and separates you from the living energy?
he kissed me on my cheeks, my neck, gave me his number, all this after weeks and weeks of flirting, hating, runnning away and waiting.
do you want to sleep with me?
i want to be wide awake, sean, i want to see! i want to live what dead prez tried to say with mind sex, break free!
he waited for so long with that and meanwhile the wild child was flying. like a butterfly from one flower to the other, enjoying life and suffering from foggy clouds of confusion
worlds within second turned upside down
my heart was racing and in the same time i was wondering what it means to be a clown
a mask that plays all that you fear a mask that makes you capable to bear
the confusion of love profusion
words came easily when i was talking to you in my mind
once with you i felt ignorant and blind
see i am scared so scared to bind
myself to things, to be intertwined

making love, just for the love of it?
i know somebody who can admit
of loving me and respecting me
letting me free
the gipsy talking....

i told him, my gipsy that i need to be on my own
then Keita called and said that i need to focus to be shown
the overwhelming moving power of creativity within
he sees the talent in me, says it s not a sin

then my world crumbled turned 360 degree
oh sean, i don't know whether it d be a good idea
to give in to this game we played, you see,
what does it really mean to be without fear........

meanwhile all this happened in act one
i was busy making plans to meet up with eddy
give beauty a chance and live for one night,
create a moment of eternal value
make a dream happen instead of dreaming
and now, now i feel so upside down


cater pillars, before they become butterflies, become cocoons, hanging upside down from a plant
i can't wait, people, world, life, i can't wait
until
comes the day
i cross the burning water
stop being an island
transform
into
this butterfly i was seeing the other sweet sunny morning
when i was all on my own
in a vision that comforted me
and dried my tears
and stilled my longing