fuck decisions

before anything i want to link here to my favorite blogs because i am too stupid to manage to have them on my blog where the rest of you guys have your favorite ones (the blogroll thing didn't work out with me, I am just really really stupid i guess when it comes down to computers) and at home on the mac of my sister i don't have the link-link displayed so i do it now, as i am at school right now....)

obi, the soul on ice from southlondon who always brings fresh and amazing music links/streams/videos to your table!!!
coffeey who is a fabulous writer with incredible taste
introspectre who is so introspective and she has a nice sexblog too!
humanity critic who is so critically funny and just wow
amadeo who i really would love to get to know one of these days
hermes who is just amazing in his writing
midwesthick is so sick

there are many more amazing bloggers out there that i enjoy, but these are the ones i read frequently.....
why does everything in life fucking requires decision making? it s so unfair. you can divide the people on this planet in:
pc people /mac people
tupac / biggie
pro bush / anti bush
those who learn how to play guitar / those who don't
active / passive
women / men
those who can make up their minds / those who can't

and freakin me, i am in the latter category.i mean for the making up the mind line

my sister says love is not sth you do or say or show, no, it s a decision.
i decided long ago, probably when i was still in the womb of my momma or maybe as a sperm in my daddies testicles that i will love the world to the fullest extend.
but nobody told me, that along the way i would have to make up my mind for PEOPLE. fuck that! this society....i mean, i understand that those rules are made to protect us, there are there for a reason, they are built on experience, universals truth concerning our emotional bonds and ups and downs, which cannot ever entirely be controlled and stirred by our intellects......
but, still, these rules are so society specific somehow....they drive me crazy.....
i DON'T want to DECIDE for one person.
I DONT

and still my best friends keep bugging me about that.
and i know and understand why
because it is not only about me
it is also about those i touch with my heart, my soul, my mind, my body
it is difficult to be entirely honest and open when things are so easily misunderstood. when you fear to lose sth due to that. when you fear to hurt

and now, as i am writing this i just think. oh fuck that, you know what? just lets eliminate fear all together.
would'nt that be a great idea.

fuck fear. FF



i love this world, oh my I do!!!