rediculous: i am in AMERICA, I have a boyfriend i am in LOVE with and we both don't feel like celebrating Valentine's day really... Me, who always advocates for putting an effort into things so they become memorable, eternal... Me, who always speaks up for the importance of beauty and celebration to make a point against all those grey and angry vibes in this world.
redliculous: how K___ carries a rose around 'just in case' for valentines day. for who? he brought me a little rose long ago, and earrings.
rediculous: how i wish secretely that my love still would MAKE sth for me on said day. what abour ear rings?
rediculous: how i coudln't really be happy about the earrings my ex boyfriend in Berlin MADE for me.
rediculous: how the gras is always greener on the other side
rediculous: how you repeat patterns that your parents lived through
rediculous: me believing EVERY month again that my period is due in about a week when I actually just am about to get it. All the fighting, all the fuzz, all the tears, all the irritation, all the chocolate and ice cream and late night spaghetti with egg splurgings, all the accusations, all the frustration, all the clumsiness: explicable! face it! you are a woman! you get your period every freaking 28 days or so! look in the sky, is the moon full or isn't it, he? ah. stupid.
rediculous: me not acknowledging to be PMSing. if i would face it for once, I could maybe start behaving extra super cautious during those days. so what happesn if i don't: i leave the house with the wrong keys, lock the door, my cellphone with all teh numbers IN the house. then, the car doesn't start, me: close to freaking out and breaking down, sobbing, calling my love, waking him up for no reason actually, taking the bus, coming late to class
in the end it was so rediculously bad that i just couldn't help but laugh about it
rediculous: me standing in front of my locked door, my sister +family in germany in BERLIN (aaaaaargh!) the landlord not having extra keys, me in a skirt without underwear, feeling sth warm and wet dropping down my knee realizing that i bloody have my period bloody bleeding hell wah! and me, outside my house without panties, without nothing, just the bloody cramps in my stomach. yuck. thats REDICULOUS and happens only to clumsy piscie piranhas like me.
word!!!
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You mean to say he did not run out and get you one of those huge heart-shaped helium balloons as big as HIM??? [[Grin]]
Valentine's Day, Schmalentine's Day.
I have a 1 pound candy bar on hand, that I bought from Trader Joe's.
Every now and again, I break off a piece during emergencies.
Big chocolate bars come in handy during those days! Particular Le PMS.
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