FUCK RACISM

oh man.
just imagine.
fuck.
i am so down
oh man. oh goddess. how is this possible.
look, i need a job.
i am broke. totally. now that i am outa college i cannot live on campus anymore, there is no food and stuff, my scholarship was indeed a nice thing. nice and safe, i didn't lose any weight so to say.

but now this: berlin is a huge city. lots of cafes and stuff, but payment is really shitty. i am going to be a waitress again, just as a backup besides the portrait painting i am planning to do on the streets. I have never done that before so i have no clue whether this will work out or not, thats why i need another job.

waitressing.

okay. now, just imagine: i just saw, that in my favourite cafe they are looking for someone! I ran home, wrote my application and all that stuff. then a friend called, we talked, and as i told him that i was applying at this cafe he told me that there is a campaign currently going on against it, as the owner instilled a racist policy. as they had lots of troubles with drugdealing in the past every waiter and waitress now had to SUBSCRIBE a paper in which they oblige themselves to kick ANY SINGLE BLACK MALE out of the cafe.



:-O



I am speechless and out of words. it hurts and it is more than stupid. fuck generalizations. aaargh. it s so incredible. as if the drugdealing would become less. aaaargh.....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.

if fuckin hurts. in berlin. i am so speechless.

well okay, now i am in big trouble. one voice in my head goes like: piranha, you have to think of you FIRST> you need money, so fucking go for it. later, as a lawyer you will fight against bullshit like that. just do what you have to do now to survive.
the other voice says clearly and very loudly FUCK YOU to all out there who are so dumb like dogshit and refuses to work in any environment that supports this kind of logic. it s no logic, but yeah, you know what i mean. i mean, there will be some idiot going to work for them, but does it have to be me? on the other hand i also could try to do something from inside. talk to people, convince etc. I am good in that, I know that. but thats a bit compromising. aaargh.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck