d.a.r.e.

well, as you read this anyways and respond much faster to whatever bullshit i drop here i can as well answer you here: this is a blog. and of course you are not really a loser and all i wrote is an exaggeration to make it sound better for the blog. virtual reality is not real life, rest assured.
for one thing you can openly drop any comments here, directly, and explain me beforehand what you are referring to when you write me emails and then for the second you can check out www.bmxberlin.de if you wish to see the site i meant. and GOSH, just don't be offended by that post!

what i meant by saying 'i have to start doubting myself and my psyche is that I already did that and I am actually just amused how I myself, who admittedly also have had quite a high self esteem, have to admit that these traits of human nature are part of me. remember, this is the dark side of the moon and it is a side of the moon but not the whole moon.

maybe i am too analytical in the end and you actually cannot devide things in a dark or bright side, but what i am doing here is to explore and express in a literal way things relating to me and my life. these are drafts and not final statements.

so please dare to openly respond to an open blog. thank you

piranha