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-Queen: 'I want to break free' - I was 18 and hated myself beyond a normal level. I hated my body, I hated my extrovert character, not always but too often than it could have been healthy. There was no way I could have believed that somebody else could not be of the same opinion as I was.* Then we moved down to the city. The friend of my uncle helped us to move, he was from Tunesia and one of the most beautiful creatures I had ever seen. His eyes were two black sees in which I fell and fell, in fact it struck me so badly that I just didn't know anymore what to say or do. Lol. That happens to extroverts too, every now and then. At some point there were no free seats in any of the cars anymore except for in his and he asked me to join. On the way down he told me stuff about himself and put in Queen, 'I want to break free'.-

The sun was shining, the wind was refreshing, we drove fast and listened to this song. I felt something was happening, but I couldn't exactly put the finger on it. When he left he gave me his number. I never called, but I felt that something had changed. It is incredible, how such a little thing can change so much. But for me, back then, it was a miracle that someone I liked so much would also like me and not one of my -oh so beautiful! - sisters. This is the magic of moments in which eyes meet and talk and you are touched by the impossibility of the coincidence of love. It's, as if a little window breaks free, opens up your isolation to another individual and you meet there beyond borders, beyond reason, - I want to break free!!!

....Today, in the cafeteria this song came in the radio, and -wham! I was back there. I have a much healthier attitude towards myself now and I wish for everybody that they also have their moments of breaking free....

Piranha,

*This was maybe also related to my very unlucky love I had for a boy who destroyed himself with drugs systematically.