the window to life

many will agree with me that there are times when we have this feeling that we are rather existing other than living. you know, i mean LIVING to the fullest, being in life, looking at life, understanding it with the heart.

there are a few people that i have met so far in my life, who i thought were so alive, so special, so encouraging, so radiating (sometimes not at first sight but still...) and i figured that all of them have found their very own window to what i call 'life' through whatever they were doing.

there is Pilar, my spanish dancing teacher, who approaches and understands life through her art. She encounters, meets, reaches out to other people through dancing and everything evolving around that. She found herself through dancing, she grew and developed and found a balance and energy that is like love: the more you give away the more you will have...
there is Lampi, a waldorf teacher and artist (sculpturing mostly but also painting and music) who climbs apple trees to get us apples at age 75 and catches as many sunrises as possible, who goes to Russia to build playgrounds in ghetto areas, who stops in awe in front of a beautiful object to draw it and admire it with love. His teachings, his words, his love, his attention have affected so many children and people I know, his youthfulness encourages everybody who sees him because it doesn't make you jealous but happy to see that. He is in balance and radiates and it seems like he knows the secret of life and he found it through his way.
there is my parents who have found their window to life through their relationship and philosophical, religious, literal studies, who have found the balance and wisdom through their work with children and teenagers, who have created an oasis with their kindergarden, who are perfect examples for me how to strive towards being a human
there is Elena, my Russian teacher, who found and came to many realizations about life and us and this world through her linguistic studies. Just another window!!! And she too, is in love with this world. with this marvellous beautiful world that bears so many secrets and mysteries. the ugly she can understand through linguistics too, and she is not afraid because she sees.
there is Mr. Elsen, a teacher of my highschool, who found his window through his art, too, his profession, his passion, and his attention, one handshake at the morning made me feel like i was seen and appreciated and i had a reason to be at this school. ONE handshake and one look into my eyes. ONE!
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and there is now:

Pat Martino, a musician who lost his memory at some point in his life and relearned playing the guitar from the scratch. He held a clinic today at my school and boy, he changed my life here!!! Sometimes I wonder what place this episode here really has in my life. What it means, what I can learn from it and sometimes I feel very lost.
But he changed my perspective entirely. His way of looking at music and guitar, living it, seeing it everywhere, is HIS window to life and you can feel it, how he stands there, how he is balanced and grounded and so loving. IT IS AMAZING. I am so in awe. WOW. WOW. WOW. I don't know, I am sooo glad I was there. The beauty in the structure of music, the beauty of the guitar, this beauty is the same beauty as the beauty of mathematics, of biology, of painting, writing, of stress, of bad luck, good luck, life, this world, this society despite all its odds and sicknesses, it is the beauty of this universe of LIFE itself.

lets be
in life and love