The mother of my very very dear friend Viola is what you call psychic around here. Matter of fact, she has healed herself from mental illness (some might claim she is still there) and has explored energetic healing from the asian medicine and broadening it further and further until she really attained capabilities that surprised yours truly.
The moment I gained trust in what she was doing was when our rabbit who was injured reacted to her treatment in an astounding way. There is no way that could have been faked. This rabbit REACTED clearly to what she was doing and god knows, rabbits are not like us, biased and suspicious all the time.
Things got even more amazing when she contacted the spirit of the rabbit and started talking in tongues - she said it was rabbit tongue - and again, Lord knows, this wasn't made up. That was channeled and you can come with any sort of explanations and excuses and what not: you weren't there. You wouldn't say all this had you been there. so just believe me for a change.
One day, she was working with me and Viola on issues we had in our class, she said that I was from the realm of Jesus Christ. I was younger and I didn't dare to ask so much, but from what I figured I understood that she meant that different souls have different tasks and intentions on earth and that I was coming from the close realm of the Spirit of Jesus Christ (I don't know, maybe some are closer to other Spirits but I won't get into that nor do I claim here to know whether or not Jesus Christ is or is not the same Spirit as God. I don't know. And maybe it is even not necessary to know.) and therefore were here on earth on a mission to serve in the Spirit of Him. Those who know me, know that I am not at all someone who is talking about this at all too much. I mean, I hardly ever quote the bible (because I haven't read it) or say 'this is what Jesus would do' or whatever. I think it often though. When I walk past beggars and homeless I cringe at the fact that I don't help all of them. I think 'Jesus would give them what they need' so I try to give as I can, I have an abundance of smiles and love, so I give of that and they crave that and love it, trust me. And when I have money, I give. I don't like to support addictions but when somebody makes an effort to gain money, i.e. makes music on the street, I ll give. I love. Unconditionally.
Well, the reason why I am writing this is the following: for some reason I attract people who are mentally instabile, who are prone to becoming schizophrenic or other forms of mental illness, people who therefore probably experiment(ed) a lot with drugs and who maybe are just vampires for my good energy. Thats what bad tongues would say, but I am not stupid. I know how to protect myself. I was blessed with parents who have sung the same protective song for and with me every night until I was 13 or so. This is a huge gift, I tell you. In the night when the devil visited my boyfriend (name it devil or whatever you like) he found out that everything he had based his life on - that is music, modern music - didn't help him a bit. The only thing that helped was singing this one song that his mother had taught him when he was five through the whole night.
I smiled. I know about the power of these songs. Let psychologists have their theories about associative powers of memory and other placebo effect like explanations, I don't care. I take it for what it is: A powerful spring. And my parents gave me this incredible gift, the key to this source, this spring, my Waldorf school was an incredible way of acquiring tools (weapons!) to face this world and this life entirely and frontal and as it is: Therefore I give. Therefore I am a warrior and I am not afraid. Because I am a sucker for goodness, for love, for forgivingness. I love this world SO SO SO incredibly much. all of it.
And BECAUSE I am sitting at this spring, with its unconditional love, smiles, embrace and power, I feed the hungry and give water to the thirsty. And I know how to distinguish between the thirsty and hungry, the starving, and the vampires. Don't get me wrong. I KNOW HOW TO PROTECT ME. THIS is the most valuable and incredible gift my parents ever gave me. The means of protection of my spirit and my soul and a healthy lifestyle for my body...
And I am so surprised , so so so surprised as to how life, again, has sent me a stranger, a lover, who is at the verge of falling. Everything seemed so easy and so light and so - easy. Yeah, easy to me, in the beginning. Wild Child, no restrictions, no boundaries, just love. Love grew to commitment, to relationship, to opening up, to digging deep into the depths of our souls and I found a broken raven bird in my right left palm.
This wonderful being who had treated me so beautifully and brought back love and sex, body mind and soul together for me, was broken deep inside and longing for a remedy but yet rejecting it in every form I started trying to give it to him.
Yet another life lesson. I knew from my big youth love Pedro that there is nothing you can do. And I knew the pain and the tears and the sadness that lay ahead and I wasn't afraid because I have never been and maybe thats due to me being from the realm of Jesus Christ. My love will buy me a bible and he will read it to me. I never have. I am a free spirit. My father has raised me this way. He knew, that one day I would eventually read the great book and I would find my own way. No,. I am not turning all of the sudden fundamentally Christian. I've always been close to God and thats not a loophole my love. I am living this life, that you were talking about.
I wake up, with the intention to do God's will here. I wake up with a smile. I open my eyes to the beauty of life, to the gifts and I don't shun the tasks and the hardship that comes along. I don't close my eyes from the evil and the sad and the bad and the dirty and I don't shun working, oh yes, I am struggeling. I am lazy. I have my issues. But all in all. I am there. And I love every single bit of it and I am ready to take it on.
I am the mother who wants to protect her children, the planet, the life. I am the lifegiving Goddess who shines in the love of God.
I am the loving messenger of Jesus Christ, because we all are, he is in us, who loves Maria Magdalena just as he loves Judas.
And I have always loved you. Always. And I always will.
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