Dear Heart,

why are you trippin?
See, this isn't that much of a problem. You are attracted to Luis? But you want Sean?
I tell you sompin: just be happy for once, that you feel at all! Okay! I mean, it s a good sign, in the first place!
Now, as far as this confusion is concerned: the intellectual challenge that Sean represents attracts the hunter in you. thats it, i am sorry to reveal that in such a blunt manner, but matter of fact, think about it twice: wouldn't you freakin run away if he really wanted to commit himself to you? wouldn't you, he? he? he?

ahhh, calm down. it's not that bad. Take Luis.
He smokes too much pot you say? so what? aren't you used to that by now? Come on. He deals? Yeah, chill man, thats direct financing, all straight business and not bullshit like hooking kindergarden kids up with crack or shit.
The other day when I saw him I felt how you, dear heart, jumped a little bit forward..The freckles around his eyes, the immediate urge to carress him and hold his face in your trembling hands.

*pauses*
*laughs*

oh, damn, trembling hands. jesus, you are really one piece of romantic idiocy.
but i guess i know what you are saying. you felt like you could make out with him. and now, isn't that more reasonable than trying to make out with a guy whom you feel in the first place attracted to because of his spirit and then his looks? also, he is one of those guys who fall into your pattern. don't you go blindly straight into that trap again. he is coloured, he is sharp and sarcastic and he is a challenge. bam, i caught you, heart, i caught you! ha! so what do you say now....

I'm gonna say that Luis is too easy. In the case I need some lovin I can still open up to him. But the problem is that you, dear heart, refuse to mess around. Man, just a little bit of fun! FUN! come on! whats so wrong about that?????????????? You mean, Sean is gonna be disgusted by you messin around? Jesus! who are you? you are one damn little foolish heart. Nothing more. Jesus Christ, why would you make it so heart, i mean, hard for yourself? why?

You can't let go anymore? YOu want to trust and love? Just, get off that track right now! just live and enjoy the moment!


Okay, okay, you enjoy flirting with both?

what should I say, just go ahead, but don't whine again like in your last post. I told ya! I told ya! It's been your choice!


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Sean likes me. I know that. I know it. I know it