i adore you so much

'do you know how much I adore you, Piranha?' he said.
his voice like velvet. ...haha. okay i stop being that pathetically romantic or whatever...his voice is just kick ass cool man! it s so lovely. adorable. that is.
'and adoring is something else than to love, you know... and you are lucky because you have both! i love and adore you so much piranha, you have no idea'
'well, what does adore exactly mean?' i asked
'it's like i want to eat you up ... - do you know this expression? like a little baby. you are so adorable and so hot and so beautiful but don't tell anybody because otherwise they gonna think you are full of yourself...and...you know, it s a secret...'
and, he added, 'i don't usually adore...you know...young ladies...' he laughed....'you know'....
i took a deep breathe. i know why he said that....today, in the morning he told me something about another girl he was with last year....he usually doesn't do that but it was just like minor...nothing special....but gosh, i suddenly felt a rush of jealousy to my head....my heart....and later, in the car i was suddenly thinking about the future and i felt like 'i really don't wanna know the woman he will be marrying and have family with. usually i do say, i am so curious who this will be and i wanna get to know her. i DON'T. it made me feel sick. when he asked me whats wrong i didn't want to tell him cuz it s so stupid in a way but then he finally made me say it and all i could say was just
'gosh, i am the least jealous person on the planet, usuallly...but i really feel jealous about your past and future. it makes me feel so... strange...sad....jealous...upset....'
'it s US now, piranha' he simply said and i know he is right...the only reality we will ever really have is the NOW. never the THEN....

I smiled into the silence.
I don't know why but you make me be that way. Thats what justifies everything.
And I adore you so much, and I love you so much, as well.

And, dear ladies and gentlemen, isn't that now a very very fortunate co-incidence?????!!!!

Piranha is smiling again....The gypsy was visiting yesterday and I gave him the bracelet I made for him and it was the one and only present that would have made him really happy. because anything else would have made him feel uncomfortable because he didn't have money to buy something for me. now he has my love-bracelet around his arm and can always look at it and feel my love.... ;-)
hehe. it s even better than a t-shirt because t-shirts you have to change every now and then but braclets not!!!!! *smiles wittiful*
a very strange thing was that his other two bracelets fell off this night. one by his mom and the other one was one that he made out of a necklace of a guy who stole his car and whom he and his cousins beat up when they found him....

so my bracelet unfolds its power already and shows good effects...yeah!!! good job!~!!!!!!!

yes, my lovely gypsy i adore you THAT much.