white. and eternity loves beauty

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so yeah i got sick of the black template for my blog. i go with white now. fuck whatever.
i am sitting at a - STARBUCKS. haha. fuck Starbucks. but whatever they have internet so here we go. actually its a nice little outdoor protected backyard thing so man, whatever, nothing can compete with Berlin Cafes so I'll be satisfied with that for now. I actually think, you know, that you always should make an effort to make things beautiful. Ask for a porcellan cup instead of letting them give you a freakin to go thing. FUCK TO GO! I mean, hey, do you actually ever think about HOW MUCH GARBAGE the states generate on a daily basis ONLY for beverages and food? GEE!
Or asking for candles. Or finding a nice spot to sit in a little alley or so. Or COOKING instead of ahm, throw something into the FUCKING MICROWAVE. Or walking instead of driving. you know what I mean?
I remember that day in Roma, when two friends of mine and I were going to have a nice dinner in TRASTEVERE, south Rom. We bought Wine, Cheese, Grapes, Bread, Olives, the nice stuff.
Then we were there and damn were we hungry, we had been in Perugia the whole day and yeah, HUNGRY. So I was like "lets find a really romantic nice spot" but we didn't. My friends were like "lets just sit here on the sidewalk but they should have known me better. I made them walk around like crazy until we found that church, beautiful place. Then they wanted to straight away eat. I was like 'NOPE, lets find candles first!" Thats when they got a little frustrated "come on PIRANHA, take it easy, lets just eat."
They should have known me better.
I ran in every restaurant I found nearby and asked for candles. I came back with a whole bunch of them.
Then we displayed the food on my marvellous multifunctional scarf/headwrap/skirt/handkerchief/poncho/blanket and Zeynep was like 'oh, this bread would be so good with oliveoil."
HA, she shouldn't have said that, hungry as she was. But I insisted on finding oliveoil and now, of course you can't buy oliveoil at midnight but you can ask at a restaurant whether they d pour some oil on your bread! There we go...And the guitar I had carried all along the way (and yeah that was worth the effort TOO!) turned out to be very useful: we sang together, and gosh, singing elevates the soul, music does! so it was beautiful! and then those old sicilian guys who came and performed songs for us on my guitar...wow...that was SO SPECIAL and joyful!!!!!
And I don't know about you, Mira, but I will never forget that evening. And the learning lesson of that was: you can't make enough an effort to make it beautiful. Because when you do, you'll create a moment for eternity.
Eternity loves beauty
Beauty is eternity.

The same applies for ourselves, if you ask me. WE are meant to be human beings but we'd be wrong in assuming it comes inclusive the package. Just think about the stories about kids who grow up with animals. We are amazingly adaptable. We can grow. We can be incredible fast runners, high jumpers, rock climbers, scuba divers, swimmers, musicians, architects, artists, scientists, all that. We can specialize in whatever we want. Animals can't.
So how comes we think we actually ARE human beings in the first place, I mean, human beings in the higher meaning of the word (whatever that means for you)?
We can develop. We can change. We can perfect in being. We can bring the best out of/in us. Just think of the fucking emotional ups and downs we have. The amazing capability of our mind/intellect. Our body. WE CAN MAKE EFFORTS. and at the seventh day we are meant to/can/may REST. ;-) hehe, i guess you got me by now...

So, this poem actually describes for me very much this predicament of our laziness and fear to become what we can truly be: HUMAN BEAUTEINGS ;-)
It is actually not courtesy to Nelson Mandela but he surely was the right person to use it in an inaguration speech. This poem is courtesy to Marianne Williamson:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, what are you not to be? Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

— Nelson Mandela (inaugural speech, 1994)