Tuesday, July 05, 2005

cool, cool breeze

It is interesting how the different components of what makes us a human being interact and take influence on each other.

I really agree with the notion that our being is composed of body, soul and spirit (whereas spirit actually is more to me than just intellect and mind.. but I am not very sure about the exact definitions yet.)

  • body: ached. wanted to make love the whole night. tohim.
  • soul: was overwhelmed, a storm of emotions were incited, it was driven to its very borders, projected (maybe? this is a term of the third realm of myself, that is intellect) longings and desires on him.
  • mind/intellect: analyzed the above. its insights caused pain on the other side. cooled the emotions down. its pragamatic approach sucks. is helpful not to be totally hurt in the end.
I sit here, do some volunteer work for the hospitalityclub
listen to India.Arie. Brown skin..you know I love your brown skin....
think about what E.'s boyfriend said about Mr. Wonderful. he said: is this the whole story???? the case is clear like water: this guy wasn't interested. there is always a way to contact you. a wedding is no excuse.
and think: well yes, who knows.
fuck
i don't want to grow up if that includes becoming so rational. I want to feel real love.
simply
once in a life time
I can't believe that a guy should behave like Mr. Wonderful did that morning and pretend he wants to see you again whereas in reality he isn't interested. if this is part of good manners i just say: fuck manners

but my mind also tells me to be patient. we'll see what happens further

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