I took a pill in the morning because I knew it was going to hurt. I don't take aspirins, I don't take any antibiotika as long as I can avoid it but since last year I have to swallow those pills...
Blame it on Eve, I don't know. Blame it on anything, it fucking sucks. Well, blame it on me. Whenever I live a balanced life, with enough space and time to do as much sports as I want to, and have enough money to eat healthy food I don't have any problems whatsoever. I don't.
I am just lacking discipline to live the same life under stressy circumstances. I start eating crappy stuff just because I don't have time to cook good stuff out of nothing and no money to buy good stuff or, hell, go to a restaurant with good food.
My mom always told me this story that female native Americans (and I bet other native tribes as well) took 'off' so to say when they had their special days, living in an extra little house/tipi/whateva. However, as odd this might seem to us, it wasn't a punishment, exclusion or anything of that sort, no, it was a privilege. They were able to concentrate on themselves, do some arts, I don't know, gather herbs or whateva. They were allowed to have a space of their own and no stress during those days.
*sighs*
I have to go to work in a minuten because someone called sick and they need help. I feel like collapsing. When I walked up the stairs of the subway I was next to an old woman. I felt like her. It was a torture to walk the stairs up, When I arrived at home the next best thing I could do was lie down and feel miserable. I am paler than ever. I feel that the pill cannot cover all the pain. My body must feel it anyways.
Eve. *ggggrrrrrrrr*
I always wanted to live in a tribal society. fuck it! fuck our society. fuck this fucked up way of living.
3 comments:
*hugs* I feel your pain, really.
There are things that help- eating more calcium, potassium and drinking lots of water in the days before and during will ease a lot of the pain and bloating. I'm a huge fan of Pamprin Multisymptom, myself. That and Motrin. And a big helping heap of Leave Me The Fuck Alone!
~grins~
I want to live in a tribal society (not for that reason). I realized that there isn't really a way for character and integrity to give you anything in this world but a friend. We have such false standards to determine worthiness.
@ intro: thanks...i know you had it worse. i mean this is once a month and not always... you are for sure a pain expert, arte you!!! i know. calcium and water. 'aight! and I take buscapan plus and by the way, it s illegal in switzerland. lol. in Germany they sell it.
yeah. it s soooo bad to work when you feel like 'leave me the fuck alone!' i am not a smiley and radiating person anymore then...
@ amadeo: yeah. you are right, totally.i wonder which substitutes for initiations that give you a sense of life and worthiness we can find in our society. all youthmovements for sure are at least in search for that, even if it s subconsciously. just think of hiphop...it does have its rituals and it does help young people to orientate themselve. thats why it s so fucking sad to see the current state of hiphop. i remember that someone of the Roots (I guess it was ?estlove but i m not sure) once said that he is really aware of the importance of what he is doing as many young people would rather listen to what the MC they trust says than to whay anybody else is saying....
here we go....
thanks for stepping by anyways.
i feel eaten up now, after work, but a lot of water (that is a shower) takes a lot of the bad vibes away.
:)
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